MARIA Shriver has revealed that her divorce from Arnold Schwarzenegger was “brutal”.
The 69-year-old has detailed the collapse of her 25-year marriage to the actor and former governor of California in her book of poetry, I Am Maria.
She writes her life “blew up” in 2011 after her husband admitted to fathering a child with their housekeeper, Mildred Baena.
She revealed in the book how his affair left her “wracked with confusion, anger, fear, sadness, and anxiety”.
“It broke my heart, it broke my spirit, it broke what was left of me,” Shriver revealed in an excerpt obtained by People.
“Without my marriage, my parents, a job – the dam of my lifelong capital-D Denial just blew apart.”
The journalist and author filed for divorce in July 2011, although the proceedings were not finalised until December 2021.
She also used her book to reflect on the impact of the separation on her children, Katherine, 35, Christina, 33, Patrick, 31, and 27-year-old Christopher.
“Everything about their world and the sanctity of their home got uprooted in an instant,” she wrote, praising them for showing “grace, valour, and courage”.
The end of her marriage followed Schwarzenegger’s admission he had fathered a son, Joseph Baena, now 27, with housekeeper Mildred, 64, in 1997.
Shriver “was consumed with grief” and “was unsure now of who I was, where I belonged” after the affair was revealed.
Schwarzenegger spoke about the fallout in his self-tited 2023 Netflix documentary, saying: “I had to go to my kids and explain it to them.”
“The reason I feel reluctant talking about it is because every time I do, it opens up the wounds again. I think that I have caused enough pain for my family because of my f*** up.”
“I am going to have to live with it the rest of my life.”
